Richard Mitchell had been lowered into the cold Chicago earth while his only son remained at a birthday party.

The funeral director glanced at Eleanor from the edge of the canopy. His expression was soft and professional, but the question was unmistakable. Should they wait?

Behind him, the mourners shifted. Old friends lowered their eyes. Men who had loaded cargo for Richard in the 1980s stood in the rain with their caps pressed to their chests. Company executives stared at the vacant chair as though it were an accusation. Charlotte, Thomas’s twenty-two-year-old daughter from his first marriage, sat two chairs down from Eleanor, her face pale and shattered, her hands clenched around a wet tissue.

Eleanor felt everything in her body harden into something clear and cold.

For forty-two years she had explained Thomas away.

He was young. He was under pressure. He was finding himself. He was hurt by the divorce. He was influenced by Victoria. He was busy. He would come around. He loved his father in his own way.

All the soft lies mothers tell themselves because the alternative is too painful.